More hours?

Today's one of those days I wish the day had more hours in it, and not because I have so much to do but just because I want to spend more time with my family. I go to the barn almost everyday lately because I'm trying to prepare for our first show that's coming up in a month.So while I'm at the barn Neill takes care of the kids, for the most part that works out great, because I don't worry about them and I can work with a peace of mind and not feel rushed. But part of me feels like by being at the barn I'm missing out on so much at home. I don't know what to do about it , because I'm selfish I want it all. I want my horse's but yet I don't want to miss a minute of my children's life's. I know this seems so trivial and most people have harder things to deal with on a daily basis but today this is my dilemma. I need to try and find away to spend more time with them and to make more time for the other things we'd like to do all while not hurting the dedication that the horse's need at this time of the year. I know I'll figure something out, I always do!

Well my little princess is another day closer to her first birthday! Hard to believe that we'll be celebrating her first birthday on Saturday. Feels like yesterday we were at the hospital welcoming her into the world. I was watching some videos that we took over the last year and it just amazes me how much life can change in such a short period of time. Not only Kenzie has changed her big brother has grown and changed too. His vocabulary has doubled and now he's using words that I don't even use. Even our kitten has doubled in size. I guess that's part of life though right? Nothing ever stays the same, we're always in a constant state of change and growth!

Today during my afternoon workout I noticed that while its not always the easiest or most pleasant experience trying to workout with a 3 year old and a 1 year old climbing all over you or nagging for something . It can actually be pretty encouraging, or at least it is for me. See Kaleb cheers me on at every little thing and is always saying you can do it mommy you can do it and then after I actually do do it he gives me a high five! It makes me proud and happy which keeps me going and wanting to push my self even more. Even little kenzie helps push me on when really Id love to just sit down and relax. She looks at me with the most adoring eyes and I just want to be a better person just to make her proud to call me her mommy. I'm so proud and lucky to have these two in my life. I can't even begin to express how truly blessed I am to call my self their mommy!


Till Next Time!!!