Pride

You ever have one of those days that shocks you? Today was one of those days for me. I shocked myself at how well I can handle what life throws at me, I'm not perfect and don't claim to be but today I am proud of myself. Today was my first thyrogen shot and I had to have a blood test first but with Neill working the mid day shift I ended up bringing the kids with me!! Holy I was so nervous of how bad it could go trying to watch the kids while having a blood test then getting a shot in the butt. It was interesting but I really am glad that they were with me! Kaleb was so good he practiced his inside voice and was a very good boy it was so funny when I got my shot I was looking and him and he goes " does it hurt mommy?" i of course didn't want to scare him so I answered no bud it doesn't hurt, without missing a beat he goes "then why are you making that face" well I started laughing and we joked back and forth. It made a crappy thing into a nice memory for me! Kenzie had a little harder time with being stuck in the stroller and not being able to see everything, but even still she was really well behaved to. I'm so proud of my babies!!

Poor babe is sick again and wasn't able to finish his shift at work so he's resting now and has the day off tomorrow thankfully so he can get over his cold and start feeling better quickly. As much as I love him being home I love healthy Neill being home more!


Today was a really great day!! I never would have thought I would be saying that after being at the hospital and hanging out with a sick man, but today really was great:)

Well it's been a busy day and it's time for me to get some rest!

Till Next Time!!!!

Now that was a weekend!

If a weekend has set guidelines of what made a weekend a real weekend I believe that we have finally had a real"weekend"! Yesterday we did are rounds of visiting , we stopped at Grammie and popped for a little bit then made our way to moms. Nan came down to see us too so that was nice. We had a great visit the kids had fun Neill and Trav got to pick on each other like normal and then just like I had hoped we got home early enough to have dinner just the four of us! Nothing major nothing fancy, what made it great was the fact that we we're all together.

But what put the cherry on top, what made this weekend so great was the fact that for the first time in I can't remember how long I didn't leave the house. I stayed in my pjs all day long and just enjoyed the company of my kids and hubby. It was awesome, we played and watched movies then we had a great visit with Grandpa and Grandie down in Texas! Gotta love kinect it brings everyone closer no matter the distance! Well after our visit I thought I should at least attempt at making the day productive I got as far as our room and decided nah today I'm doing nothing! But at least our room is clean :)

I go tomorrow for my first shot before my scan on Friday..... Gotta say I'm a little nervous but at least I'll have the kids with me so that will help me be strong. Everyone keeps asking if I want them to watch the kids while I go but I keep say no it's ok, I'm realizing now that it's more then likely because i know that if they are with me I won't let my self be afraid or anxious because I'll be strong for them!!
Just another step to get through so that we can have a great summer:)

Well I'm off to enjoy the rest of my do nothing day!

Till Next Time!!!!

Winter again..... No thank you

Well as the title may suggest today dear mother nature decided to be nasty and throw some nasty wind and yes the dreaded s word snow... I was not impressed to see that this morning. But I got to feel useful today at the barn, we built temporary stalls for the three other broodmares and babies! It felt good to be busy like that. Ariel and delight were both nice and comfy up in the neighbors barn, Ariel is almost all sheded out, just her neck area left! She's so much darker. I'd say she's almost a liver chestnut which is my favorite! well one of them anyway :)

My battle with kaleb continued today once I got home from the barn we were at each other again. It just seems like everything I say he either crys or talks back. I'm trying to stay calm and level headed but it's pretty hard. I know it's not just his fault I'm not as patient because of the stupid low iodine diet and the anxiety that ones with the upcoming scan. But even with all the battles and fights kaleb and I went through we still managed to get some laughs in!


Kenzie was feeling goofy tonight she would flop on her chair and climb onto her brother it was adorable. She actually let kaleb flip her upside down! I freaked thinking he hurt her but couldn't stop laughing when I saw her reaction , she actually thought it was fun! Big news today little miss actually walked all by herself. I thought maybe just maybe she'd walk to kaleb well I was right! It was sooo awesome kaleb and I both freaked out and started clapping and saying good girl!!


Tomorrow's Saturday I'm hoping we can have a quiet weekend so we can just relax and enjoy each others company after this week I'll have one weekend left before the first show of the season! I'm getting nervous. I don't know what I'm going to do without my babies for an entire weekend. At least I have a great hubby and I know he'll take great care of the kids!

Well I'm going to go finish the tiding up before my love comes home!


Till Next Time!!!

Don't Blink

Don't Blink!!

Seriously I think ever time I blink another day as past and I'm sitting here at the computer writing these posts. I'm starting to really think that time just needs to slow down. Maybe not a pause or rewind but a SLOOOOOW motion button. I just want my babies to stay babies for just a little bit longer. 

We took the to the barn with us today....Kenzie was amazing. Not a peep out of her she was  so happy just being around the horses and looking at the big construction trucks. Kaleb on the other hand. I would have liked to leave in the car. I don't know quite what his problem is lately but he's either really happy and being extremely good or he's being such a brat. Now I know I sound cold and mean to call my own child a brat but I'm being brutally honest, Lately he has been just done right horrible. He cries over the smallest things, he lies and then of course he knows he's been bad starts whinny and crying all over again. I just wish that kids came with a user manual or something. I love my poohie, More then words but when he gets like this I feel like a giant failure. Like I'm a horrible mother and nothing I do is right. Because in my mind kids are a direct representation of their upbringing. So that's my dilemma of the day. What am I doing wrong.



I was told a few weeks ago that certain people think that my priorities aren't in the right place and that I should be more focused on my family. I haven't really said anything because I'm trying to let that go but at the same time it sticks to the back of your mind like a bad movie. I know that I spend a lot of time at the barn and by a lot I mean like 3 hours  a day. But really how is that different the mothers that go to work for 8 hours a day? Yes I may not be getting paid to do what I'm doing but the opportunities I have are amazing. I'm working with amazing animals. I'm responsible for their training and that takes dedication. So I guess people need to look at an entire picture before they sit back a judge my situation. Neill and I are happy with our life and yes it takes sacrifices to me being at the barn but I think  that in the end it benefits not only me but my entire family. Kaleb and Kenzie will have such wonderful opportunities to learn with some pretty outstanding horses if they decide that's what they want.  I feel much better now that I've gotten that off my chest!!

Back to my babies, Kenzie is getting better and better at going to bed on her own. Some nights now she doesn't even cry at all and just closes her eyes and goes to sleep! I think cutting back on the naps during the day is going to help that too. She's getting better about not wanting to nap at 3 in the afternoon too! She's walking more and more everyday I'm sure within the next month she'll be walking on her own. Once she sets her mind to something she does it! yesterday she tried to climb up onto Harley's back trying to ride her like a horse. It was adorable. I'm so lucky to have a little girl! Its so much fun!
Kaleb like I  said is either really good or really bad. It can get pretty tiring but at the same time I try to find something amazing that he does every day and without fail I find at least one thing. He's a  pretty special little boy and as much as he drives I know how lucky I am.  


Oh and we got some good news today Babe goes to see the specialist on the 18th of May. So we'll hopefully get a surgery date shortly after and then we can get my sweetie back on the mend! 


That's it for tonight, 


Till Next Time!!!

Wednesday already

Wednesday already? It doesn't seem possible, the days just fly by it's insane. I course went to the barn today even though I wasn't looking forward to it like I normally do. Once I got there things slowly started getting better though. Nothing like the power of horses to make you have a quick change of heart! I decided with everything going on I didn't want to practice showmanship so instead, I turned today into a giant photo shoot! With only two weeks till the show we need some new pics of our fillies!Spring was a major show off and I finally got the chance to take some pictures of a horse rearing up! I should have been a little more to the side of her but either way I love the picture and I will be putting it up on the wall! Even Chance put on a good show :) I can't remember if I explained who spring is.. well she is a yearling filly, Ariel's half sister on the fathers side! I'm going to be showing Spring at the New England Paint Horse Club shows and probably a couple futurity's in the fall, As you can see she is a gorgeous girl. I'm extremely lucky to have the opportunity to work and show her. Ariel and Delight are doing good, got the news tonight that they will still have a place to stay once they start digging the arena out.I was very relieved! Everything really does work it's self out when you just give it a chance!

Kenzie had her one year check up today shots included. My oh my she really didn't like the nurse, it was unreal how much she didn't even want to look her, So she got her three shots in her arms. I wish they could have given them to her in her legs, she doesn't have much meat on her arms poor thing. She cried of course but the minute we got out of the room she was smiling again! I of course found it really hard to watch my peanut get her shots, to see the fear and dread in her eyes. I actually found my self having to keep my self from both stopping the girl from poking her and from crying myself.  Babe came with us but with his hernia acting up and the language barrier its hard for him to feel included in the process. I  sometimes wish we lived somewhere where he didn't have to worry if the people he would run into spoke a different language but then I realize that this is the best place for us to be.Anyways our doctor says that Kenzie is staying on her growth curve so we don't need to worry she's just built in a tiny package! There is nothing wrong with that. I'm happy that she's stayed on her line I always worry that maybe she's missing something but I guess I can stop worrying now! So besides having to hold her down to even listen to her heart, he appointment went really well. She's perfect!! 

My little man went to Grammie and Poppa's for the afternoon so once I got down at the doctors office I headed to Waterville to pick him up. I have no clue why but I turned into the Tim Horton's parking lot and was hit with a huge anxiety attack which got so bad I actually took a detour because I thought something was wrong with my car, I swear sometimes it would be nice to have an off bottom on my brain. Its so tiring.  Kaleb of course was having such a good time that he wanted to stay longer so we stayed for supper, I didn't complain any meal I don't have to cook is a great one :) After supper we stopped at my moms, I wanted to stop and pick up my new pink iPod charger! It's so cool even the wall adapter is pink I love it!

I bet your waiting for me to say I'm gonna go fold laundry huh, but not tonight I'm gonna change it up! I'm going  to curl up on the couch and watch TV till my sweetie comes home!

Till Next Time!!!

Simply a nice family day!

Simply a nice family day!

 Nothing fancy happened, we went to visit my aunt at her farm. Kaleb must have asked about 100 questions and ran the length of the arena a dozen times so i'd say its safe to say he enjoyed himself! I miss going to that barn, I really need to make more of an effort to get there more to visit with her. While we we're up that way we went back to Courtney's to make a trip to visit with her and of course so Kaleb could go see the goats and all the other animals. I think we've decided to try a goat out on loan. Meaning we will bring one of the yearling goats up to the barn close to courts place and see if Kaleb is actually interested before we invest money into something that he ends up not wanting anything to do with! So i'm not sure who's more excited him or me. I really am and animal nut. I would love nothing more then to have my own little menagerie! I hope that the kids become animal lovers too. Kaleb loves everything so i'm sure that will continue as he grow up! Kenzie is still pretty young but she seems to be pretty interested in the animals too. She is especially fond of cats. I think that has a lot to do with the fact that Mia has been sleeping with her since she was very young! I'm always so proud of Harley when we take her place and she behaves like such a good girl, she just loves to run and play and to see her listen so well and stay close off her leash is an amazing feeling. Its amazing that  with so little work she can do long distance sit stays, or lay downs. She's an amazing family dog and we are lucky to have her in our life! One of the worlds 7 best dogs on earth!

Well when we came home Kaleb and I thought it would be a good idea to give Harley a bath, She had been playing in the mud and walking around in the stinky cow/goat barns so he jumped into the tub and we gave her a bath! The water was NASTY dirty. I don't know how one dog can get so dirty!! Oh well it was so worth it Kaleb and I had a blast and she looks so good now. I've decided that before we start the summer flea prevention that the cats are getting a bath too. I don't think I'll have Kaleb help me this time, the last time he helped me wash Dewey he felt so bad for the cat that he thought he would dry him off with toilet paper.... yes toilet paper so that just made a huge mess, atleast Dewey is very patient! 

Poor Kenzie is teething like crazy right now so her mood is pretty touch and go. But she actually let me feel her gums today and I can feel the tooth under the skin so it should be to much longer poor thing. She goes to the doctors tomorrow for her one year shots and her check up. I'm anxious to see what they are going to say about her size. When I went a few months ago our doctor said that we would know more at this appointment.I mean how many babies actually wear out there clothes her age. She's actually wearing a onesie that she wore at a month old, its crazy. I think its cute how little and petite she is, a real little doll! But don't let that little package fool you she is chucked full of personality and attitude!

Well it's that time again, yupe you guessed it! Time to go fold laundry! 

Oh and before I forget, what we had hoped for with the horse's didn't work out so for now we are going to stay where we are. Eventually we will have our own place to keep them!! 

Till Next Time!!!!

Playing Catch Up

I've been sitting here trying to think of what to write about today. My last post was a pretty big downer and since I'm still kind of in a bad place at the moment when it comes to my horses. I got hit with another frigen shocker this morning when I got to the barn, that just sent me on a whirl wind of emotions and ugh to be honest it's exhausting. See where we board our horses they are under going some pretty major Reno's like new arena and turning the current arena into a permanent barn. but since they were already full they had been using the current arena as a barn anyways and that's where my girls where so when I got there this morning it was pouring rain so I of course expected to see my pretty girls standing in their stall happy to see me. I walked into a totally different thing all together. I walked in to see my horse's soaking wet in the run in after having spent the night outside. Yes they could come in for shelter if they wanted but still. One Ariel is my futurity baby. I need her to be kept at optimal condition at all times, and Second I just spent $140 on horse shoes for delight and now she stuck out into a swampy field. Now as mad and upset I am that they have to life like that , what hurts me the most is the fact that no one felt the need to let me know that my horses will be living like that for a minimum of two weeks. Now to some it may seem like I'm over reacting but think of it this way, these two have in kept inside with blankets on all winter and Delight is on 100% summer show hair and Ariel isn't far behind her. So now I'm stuck debating if i should reconsider the location I'm boarding them or if I should just suck it up. I'm going tomorrow to talk to someone else about maybe moving the girls there. I'll be able to make my mind up easier after that.




OK so now I've gotten whats bothering me off my chest I'll tell y'all about the good stuff that has happened since Friday! We had a very nice weekend, Saturday started out rough with a bad trip to Walmart but quickly turned around to end up being a great day! We went to visit mom and Nan was down too so that was nice, the kids are always so happy to see her!. Once we got home Neill and I actually sat down and watched a movie together no babies demanding out attention. It was nice it made all the crying the week before teaching Kenzie  to go to sleep on her own. Sunday Poohie went to Sunday school, so we went and visit the errands at Walmart. We got my show outfit for the show in may. Then headed to my grandparents to pick up poohie and have lunch with them! I had an awesome experience I got to bottle feed a goat for the first time ever. It was so cool. poor Kaleb has a very weak stomach and he was fine until he smelt the milk and then nope he wouldn't do it no more. I felt bad for him but he at least got to try to do and was able to see the little goats all happy and drinking it was a really cool thing to share with my kids. Kenzie wanted to get down and play with them it was cute! I'd say her favorite part of the visit to Courtney's was the 2 week old kittens her eyes got all big and she just looked so happy it was adorable! I really wish I could move onto a small piece of land so we could keep our horses at out own place and we could have a couple goats and stuff. We are a family of animals lovers stuck in an apartment that none of want to be in lol. Oh well you make do with what you have and you learn to live with the decisions you've made. Neill and I watched a couple more movies Sunday night and I shocked myself I only feel asleep during the second one!! Lately the minute I sit down and relax a little bit I'm out like a light!


Well now I've got you up to I can fill you in on the cuteness of today! Kaleb and I finally tackled his bedroom, it was an DISASTER of epic proportions. But now it looks amazing, He is very proud of his room now, he said that he was going to stay awake all night just so he could show his dad what a good job he did! I told him it would still be clean in the morning so it was safe to go to sleep! We had a little chat and he's going to try to keep his room clean like that all the time, I said your room should like this every night. A little while later he went in to put something away and he goes I'm gonna make my room like this every night it was pretty awesome! 


Kenzie is getting closer and closer to walking she walks along everything and anything now and likes walking holding our hands. I'm sure it won't be long and off she'll go. She's teething like crazy right now. When Kaleb was little I thought he had big teeth but man his teeth were small compared to the teeth in her mouth ouch is the only thing that comes to mind, he poor little gums are all swollen and red but she's a tough nut and is staying in pretty good humor just the same. She has quite the character my little peanut princess! She quite clearly told her brother no over the weekend it was so cute. He was trying to get her to say Cat and she shook her head and said no it was priceless. Another great achievement this weekend was Kenzie learning how to drink from a straw! She could scream and yell at us to hold her sipping cup for her she had no desire to even try to hold it for herself so we decided well its worth a try I only had to show her once and BAM she now holds her own cup and can drink without us holding it for her!!


I think I've vented and ranted enough for one night its time for me to go fold my mountain of laundry!!


Till Next Time!!!

BLARG.... This day can shove it!

OK so I've been trying very hard to keep this blog strictly about the happy things in my life, since for the most part I know I am an extremely lucky girl but today its just beyond that. I'm so discouraged and ready to blow a gasket. It started off like every other single day of the week, up breakfast then headed to the barn. My showmanship practice with spring went horrible. I couldn't do anything right. The horse was doing great but it was me the problem, which is way harder to fix then the horse. Then Ariel was a pain in the butt to get her feet trimmed. She managed to throw herself on the ground then get her halter off  which was very frustrating. Finally by the end she stood still and didn't move. Then I asked Chuck about delights feet, if it was really the thrush that was the problem..... turns out no she's more then likely navicular which isn't cure-able, which means unless I want to spend a large sum of money getting nerve endings cut I can only hope that the new shoes and pads along with bute will make it so the kids can ride her and maybe if I'm lucky I'll be able to do a little trail riding, but I won't ride her limping the way she has been that's for sure. So there goes every plan I had for her for the summer, she was suppose to go  to the local shows so Kaleb could do lead-line and then eventually Kenzie would use her too. I'm so discouraged about this isn't not even funny. Not to mention the fact that I'm not on the stupid low iodine diet for  my cancer scan on the 4th of may.

But I did have some good points today, I of course am feeling pretty low so I was crying earlier and so I explained to Kaleb that I was sorry for being weepy that I was just sad because delight was "sick" and that made mommy sad and he goes without missing a beat, " oh mommy don't worry, I'll go to the barn with you tomorrow and make everything better!" He has such a heart of gold that boy. He can really turn a crappy moment into one that you can't help but smile :)

Poor Kenzie is either teething or coming down with an ear an infection. She has a little fever again and is pretty grumpy. But still manages to get into trouble, i'm going to have to rig a gate up on the bathroom door again because otherwise she's in there playing with the toilet and just getting into trouble! What a girl!

Anyways I think I've vented enough for one day, I'll make sure my next post is happier :)

Till Next Time!!

Its funny how to littlest things can make your day the best!

Its funny how to littlest things can make your day the best! 

Today started off like every other day of the week, woke up had a quick bit to eat then headed off to the barn. The vet was coming today so I was really looking forward to going. I love learning at talking to the vet. So delight got her cog-gins test and her spring vaccines, So if ever she gets better enough to take to the show we'll be all set and ready to go!  Chuck is suppose to put the D-bar shoe on either this afternoon or tomorrow. I'm anxious to see if that improves anything. Little Ariel's going to be getting her feet done for the first time too!!  Spring is all clipped and ready to go now! Jacinthe did an outstanding job not a single clipper mark on her I was really impressed! I'm starting to get pretty excited/nervous for the first show, I just want everything to go well. I've put a lot of hours into this horse and with any luck it will show in the ring! It would be nice to finally get my ROM in showmanship, every time I get close something happens and I either miss a show or I can't show that specific horse anymore. But hopefully this year will be different :)

 So after I got done helping with the vet and visiting the foals out in the pasture, I came home grabbed the family and took off for Grammie's. It was such a  beautiful day, we had to spend it outside enjoying the fresh warm air! The kids both love to be outside playing. It's so awesome to watch them explore and be in awe with their surroundings. Kaleb loves to chase butterflies and play in his sand box as long as someones watching while kenzie is happy crawling around in the dirt giving everything a taste test! I won't lie I'll be glad when that phase is done! The two of them can put a smile on my face with the simplest of things. Perfect example on the drive home from their house I had the window down music on and both of them are singing away, at the moment Neill and I looked at each other and couldn't help but smile. It was a moment of bliss. We were all happy with the simple things in life each others company, the fresh air and a good song! The good times kept going when all of a sudden Kenzie lets out a screech and then both her and Kaleb start laughing like silly monkies. They both have such an infectious laugh that Neill and I couldn't help but join them in the laughter! The reason they were laughing is because Kaleb would touch kenzie's foot then she would screech then Kaleb would jump and then bam they would both laugh! It was soo adorable! Kaleb really is a fantastic big brother, yes he sometimes gets annoyed with his sister but that's normal. I'm so happy that Neill and I decided to have another baby. Mackenzie just makes the family feel complete watching the two of them play I really can't believe I ever considered only having one! 

 Well tonight was night number four, Kenzie is getting much better about going to bed by herself. She doesn't put much of a fuss at first she normally will be sound a sleep within 10 minutes but its once she wakes up an hour an hour and half later that's the problem that's when she just throws a fit and I know she's still tired I can see it in her eyes but she just screams and screams and gets up a million times. That's when it test's my patience. But I've done well I haven't caved yet. The only time we give in is after 5 in the morning. We figure that's morning and she's managed to sleep the night all by herself. 

Its time to go fold some clothes and watch my new favorite show Grey's Anatomy

Till Next Time!!

Love days like today!

What a beautiful day! Started off pretty good, I was the first awake so I was able to get the kids breakfast ready and pour their morning glass of milk before they were even out of bed. Which meant that Neill got to sleep in for a few extra minutes, It was a nice change of pace to not feel like I'm peeling my self out of bed, I woke up ready to go!


The goal at the barn today was wash and clip Delight and just brush Ariel and Spring. So of course Delight was a good girl for her bath and then she got to have a snack while she dried off. I was shocked at how well she stood to be clipped I was excepting her to move a lot because of the sores on her legs but she was perfect, actually she behaved like she was enjoying it! I love that horse so much!  Luckily Delight wasn't limping as much today so I've decided that instead of spending upwards of 300$ on x-rays and everything else that I'll go my uncles suggested route and try a D bar shoe and see if that will give her the support she needs while the thrush heals and if after awhile the  limp continues or worsens then we'll reconsider the x-rays.I couldn't believe the amount of hair that Ariel shed out today, it was insane she has to big spots on either side that are short short, looks ridiculous. I would clip her completely but it's still too early for that.  It just hit me today that I'm responsible for the training of three horses, two of which I own, How lucky am I :)

So it was such a nice day today that when I got home we had a quick lunch and took the kids to the park! It was so much fun. Kaleb climbed the rock wall all by himself for the very first time! I was of course nerves and wanted to baby him a bit but Neill wouldn't let me. I suppose he's right I can't do everything for him. But it's hard for me to let go. I just can't believe how fast he's growing up. Oh well I don't care how big or old he gets he will always be my poohie! Kenzie was playing on the slid trying to figure out how to get off the slid without falling on her face it was adorable, she would scoot to the edge then very slowly put her foot on the ground, she's still so tiny! She thought being able to crawl around through the playground was pretty awesome she looked so proud of herself.  I can't wait to see her running around chasing her brother, its going to look so funny this tiny little girl chasing this huge hulk of a boy. Poor Neill's hernia is really starting to bother him, its actually starting to frustrate him too because he can't lift the Kaleb and if he carries kenzie for to long he gets sore too. I mean just throwing the tug rope for Harley aggravated it. I'm hoping we hear something soon.

So we had a pretty awesome time at the park, just making memories and enjoying the sunshine!

Kenzie is doing great on the whole going to bed by herself , Tonight was day 3 and it took 5 minutes, I went in once and that was it for over an hour and then I'm not sure what happened but So far I've only had to go back in a few times and she seems to be sleeping again now. I'm happy with how its going. It really could be going much worse. I've heard some pretty bad horror stories and most are just from my mom telling me how bad I was!






Well the apartment is clean, dishes are done, laundry is on the go and blog post done, Now its time to go take it easy on the couch folding clothes!

Till Next Time!!!

Monday oh let the week begin!

I thought today was going to be the start of a quiet week. Friday I had made the decision that spring couldn't handle the everyday work load and that she didn't to have a break  for a bit before I didn't have a horse to show at all so that would mean I wouldn't be gone from home as long and have more time to breathe in between activities..I was wrong :( I will still only be working spring three times a week for now. But now tomorrow I have to go clip delights leg then I have company coming over in the afternoon to see the kids, then Wednesday its springs day to work then Thursday I have to go back to the barn to be there for when the vet comes to x-ray Delights feet. I'm so discouraged we had hoped it was just thrush but shes not getting any better in fact someday's shes worse. But Neill is staying positive so that helps! Delights just a key part of my life and I just want everything to be OK.  So ya that's the plan Thursday then Friday Grammie comes back to be our judge to help make sure that we will be ready for our show on the 11Th of may. At some point this week I have to find time for court to come over she wants to see the kids and I would like to get my dose of baby holding!! Ugh maybe next week will be quiet ;)

At least I got to let the kids play outside for a little bit again today! They love being outside as much as I do :) The other big change in our household is that Kenzie has moved into her crib for good now. She goes to bed by herself in her crib. Yesterday was day one, it was pretty rough listening to her cry but I know we're doing the best we can and that she needs to learn that she has to sleep in her bed and that she doesn't need mommy to sleep. It will make my time apart from her this summer much easier on the both of us. Tonight was a little rough because I didn't have my support system with me but I did good I stuck to my guns. At first I thought I had gotten away easy, I even updated my status saying how good she did. Well not even 25 minutes later she was back up and this time showed me that I should wait before I speak. Because holy moly it took a long time to get her back to sleep but I stuck to my guns and in the end I won the battle she is sleeping soundly now and I'm proud of both of us!

Well I better get to folding clothes if I want to be able to relax a few minutes before bed!


Till next time!!!!

Friday madness, Saturday fun, Sunday rush, weekend what?

So like the title says this past weekend was a busy one, so busy it didn't feel much like a weekend. But it was all for good reason my little princess peanut was a year old on Saturday!!







 Friday was INSANE, I went to the barn in the morning to work spring then had to rush home to make sure I had enough time to get the birthday balloons before Neill went to work so I came home had a quick bite to eat then hit the road to get the balloons and drop them off at my moms, then off to get the darn birthday cards, seriously you can waste like 30 minutes just looking for the perfect card. So 20 dollars worth of cards later and I'm rushing back home so Neill can get off to work on time. The kids and I are right back on the road heading to Nana's house to get decorating the cupcakes and try to get as much of the party set up as we can! Well over 40 cupcakes later and over 60 balloons later we we're able to finally relax.. and boy did my feet appreciate the break!

Saturday I of course was the first one up. I always am on special occasion, kenzie who still was sleeping in our bed at the time was sound a sleep and from the snoring coming from Kaleb's room I knew he was sound a sleep so I did my very best to control my huge urge to yell wake up  as loud as I could!  I am still a huge kid at heart and get overwhelmingly excited at birthdays, Christmas things like that. I just love to see the kids reactions! So I woke Neill up instead, he and I talked a bit and then I just couldn't take it anymore I wanted her to open her presents and so I woke her up ( not my proudest moment but let's move on ), I of course couldn't let her open her presents without her brother so I also woke up the hulk boy! Luckily he is a very big morning person and is happy within seconds of opening his eyes!! Kenzie didn't really have the reaction I had hoped for when she was opening her presents but looking at it now its just her personalty she loved her gifts but she just gets very withdrawn and unemotional when shes put on the spot! A complete 180 of her big brother who wears his heart on his sleeve and gets super excited over the smallest things! Her party was a huge success, a few people I had hoped would come ended up not being able to make it. But in the end the group we had was perfect! Everyone got a long and we even got to celebrate with Mackenzie's grandparents in Texas. They even had a cake and party hats, it was the coolest thing I've seen in a really long time! They didn't let the distance between us keep them from sharing in her special day and I think is just so amazing. More great news on her Birthday is she started walking with her walker! I was so amazed to see this itty bitty little thing just start pushing her stroller over towards me! It was just way to awesome :)



Sunday oh Sunday, beautiful Sunday. It was so warm and beautiful on Sunday I just wanted to take the kids to the park or anywhere outside really.  But I had a baby shower to go to. My cousin is due the middle of July and so mom and I headed out there to the baby shower for a couple hours. I was glad we went, it was nice to see her and I had a great time. Good food, good company, and good laughs. In the end we got home from the shower early enough that I  got the chance to take the kids to play outside. We had to go pick up Harley-belle from Grammie and Poppa's so we got to play outside for a bit. I worked on the garden and the kids played in the sand box, it was nice. I love being outside working on the garden. Actually I just like being out side!

I guess that pretty sums up my weekend, We had a great weekend really just busy. I look forward to being to take a breather soon. Just sleep in and do nothing or close to it for an entire day. That would be just awesome!

Till Next Time!!!

Birthday..ugh what?

What a day!! We woke up this morning and within 10 minutes we we're getting ready to head out the door to go visit someone we hadn't seen for awhile! Kaleb wanted to go back and see the goats and stuff so we made a stop at Courtney's too, I didn't mind because this way I got to hold sweet baby Keira!!  I was so surprised at how well behaved our Harley belle was, she said at the door of the barn and waited for us to tell her it was OK, she's something else that dog! I just love her to pieces! Definitely one of my smartest dumb decisions ever!! Kaleb was even braver with the goats today he spent  a good amount of time in the pen with the three youngest ones. The little white one was crawling all over him and he just loved it. So Neill and I have been talking and once we do a little more research and such we will more then likely be buying a couple pygmy goats so that Kaleb can do 4H with them and so he can have some of his own to play with! We are going to need our own farm soon, oh well all in due time!!

So after another busy morning we came home and I left again with Grammie and poppa to go to Costco to get a few last things for Kenzie's birthday party. Once I got home it was cupcake making time, I've made over 3 dozen cupcakes today and I love it! I honestly really like baking I find it relaxing in a strange way. I don't find the cleanup all that fun but that's all part of it :) I think I'm still in a bit of denial about my sweetie turning one on Saturday. I look at her and it just doesn't feel possible that shes already going to be a year old. I hate that they grow up so fast. I mean yes there are aspect that I like. Once they can start talking and can tell you what they want and whats bothering them it makes life so much easier but I still think they should stay babies just a little longer. Some days I look at the kids and think oh just one more and I could say OK that's enough babies. But then I think well with one more baby I'll be that much busier and time will go by just that much faster so I'll be missing the baby phase just as much. I wonder if that feeling ever goes away. The feeling of wanting another baby, to have something that just needs you so much. To feel that little life growing inside you. aah I loved being pregnant. But as much as I loved being pregnant and enjoyed the baby phase I love watching my babies grow and develop their own funny personalities!

We got a letter from the hospital today for Neill's surgery, or what we thought what was going to be about his surgery turns out that the Dr he saw at the emergency room wasn't enough so now hes on a waiting list just to see a specialist about the hernia and then they will schedule his surgery..ugh poor guy. The pain is getting worse and he even finds it hard walking and stuff. Its going to make for a very long and boring summer for him that's for sure. We did get some good news though, when he goes on medical leave for the recovery from the surgery he'll still get 55% of his pay which will be a big help!

After another long and busy day all I want to do is curl up on the couch and watch TV, but I think I'll work on some more of the birthday decorations and that way tomorrow isn't quite as busy! 

Till Next Time!!

More hours?

Today's one of those days I wish the day had more hours in it, and not because I have so much to do but just because I want to spend more time with my family. I go to the barn almost everyday lately because I'm trying to prepare for our first show that's coming up in a month.So while I'm at the barn Neill takes care of the kids, for the most part that works out great, because I don't worry about them and I can work with a peace of mind and not feel rushed. But part of me feels like by being at the barn I'm missing out on so much at home. I don't know what to do about it , because I'm selfish I want it all. I want my horse's but yet I don't want to miss a minute of my children's life's. I know this seems so trivial and most people have harder things to deal with on a daily basis but today this is my dilemma. I need to try and find away to spend more time with them and to make more time for the other things we'd like to do all while not hurting the dedication that the horse's need at this time of the year. I know I'll figure something out, I always do!

Well my little princess is another day closer to her first birthday! Hard to believe that we'll be celebrating her first birthday on Saturday. Feels like yesterday we were at the hospital welcoming her into the world. I was watching some videos that we took over the last year and it just amazes me how much life can change in such a short period of time. Not only Kenzie has changed her big brother has grown and changed too. His vocabulary has doubled and now he's using words that I don't even use. Even our kitten has doubled in size. I guess that's part of life though right? Nothing ever stays the same, we're always in a constant state of change and growth!

Today during my afternoon workout I noticed that while its not always the easiest or most pleasant experience trying to workout with a 3 year old and a 1 year old climbing all over you or nagging for something . It can actually be pretty encouraging, or at least it is for me. See Kaleb cheers me on at every little thing and is always saying you can do it mommy you can do it and then after I actually do do it he gives me a high five! It makes me proud and happy which keeps me going and wanting to push my self even more. Even little kenzie helps push me on when really Id love to just sit down and relax. She looks at me with the most adoring eyes and I just want to be a better person just to make her proud to call me her mommy. I'm so proud and lucky to have these two in my life. I can't even begin to express how truly blessed I am to call my self their mommy!


Till Next Time!!!

Another day in yo-yo paradise!

Have you ever noticed that being a parent is like being a huge yo-yo? That your day from the minute you wake up to minute you go to sleep is a huge mess of ups and downs.  You go from smiling to yelling to smiling again in about 5 seconds. Its crazy. Today I spent my day on the mother-load of a yo-yo and it made me realize that OK maybe I'm not crazy but that its all just part of the ride. Nothing can be perfect no single day is going to go 100% perfect there will be things that make you upset or annoyed but its all the little good things that really make a good day perfect!



 I first noticed this when I was sitting in the car waiting for Neill to be finished at the dentist and was working on a post for this very blog and I was going on about how waiting in the car with a 3 year old and a 1 year old can either go really well or really bad and I was saying how this time was one of the good times when BAM good times over total colossal melt down begins and there you have it the good time turns bad and the dramatics in my mind begins. But then a whole 3 minutes later and I look at Kaleb who is obviously just bored out of his skull sitting there smiling and Kenzie who had just been screaming bloody murder sound a sleep and BAM bad time turns to perfect moment! So really overall the wait in the car today was a great one! Kaleb was hilarious and informs me that his father was a very bad boy today while I was at the barn and was coloring ALL over the walls and that he should be in trouble. I couldn't help but let a giggle out at that!  Then to help ease his boredom he helped me clean up the car a little (my car looks a bit like a garbage can at the moment, not proud of it but lets me honest its the least of worries these days!) So three granola bars, half a dozen hand fulls of chips and a million questions later and Neill is finally done in the dentist office. Poor guy has had the week from hell last week just to have to turn around and go back to get more work down on his mouth (lesson to be learnt DON'T wait like 15 years to go to the dentist). So of course Kaleb is thrilled to see his dad but informs him that he should speak english like him and not french because its to hard to understand. (he was speaking english but was still very frozen so was hard to understand) Of course I couldn't control my laughter and we laughed until I cried what a kid he always as something witty to say!!

So we've all been feeling under the weather and my youngest brother was here with us and when I have company I became like an accessory to my furniture so nothing and I mean nothing had been done in the means of housework so after a morning and most of the afternoon spent running around. I had to squeeze in the housework before my sweet lil peanut decides that OK that's enough hold me now! So I used my super mommy powers and turned a simple music station into the motivation to get things done and all the while watching kaleb flop around like a fish, he has a very UNIQUE interpretation on dance!! I also learnt today that Kenzie has official reached the DON'T TAKE YOUR EYES OF THE BABY phase. I was reaching the end of the cleaning frenzie the apartment was becoming more and more presentable with every second and BAM  I find kenzie climbing on top of the cooler with no regards to how close to edge she is. Of course had this been Kaleb I would think nothing of it he's huge but Kenzie weighs 17 lbs soaking wet. So of course after I make sure she is safe I grab the camera in hopes she does it again so I can properly document her little escapades and of course right back up she went!! Score I learnt my lesson and I got pictures yay I couldn't ask for more right :)

 I sent Neill a txt msg today saying that today sucked and using other colorful words basically saying that I wanted the day to be over all because of a simple glass of spilled milk. Kaleb spilled his glass of milk onto my saddle and I was very mad and poor little fart knew it. I don't know if it was because he seemed so upset or if my earlier internal monologue had actually stuck but no sooner then I hit send on the phone I went this is stupid. I grabbed the cloth  wiped up the mess gave Kaleb a hug and said the old saying  "don't cry over spilt milk" and that was it. An hour later neill of course thinking the worst txt me back asking what was wrong I replied very simply Nothing I overreacted! Wow another big step toward bettering myself admitting I overreacted.

Today was simply great day, nothing fancy, nothing special just an overall great day! I truly feel like I learnt an important life lesson today. To look at the big picture not to write off a day just because there were a couple bumps in the road but to use the bumps to appreciated the good moments! Lets be honest I'm sure that even on the worst day we could find something to make that day a good day. A simple smile from a baby, a silly joke from a toddler or a encouraging hug from a loving friend/partner/spouse. I'm truly blessed I have all three of those things in my life! That makes my odds for a great day pretty darn good!!


Till next time!!