Don't Blink

Don't Blink!!

Seriously I think ever time I blink another day as past and I'm sitting here at the computer writing these posts. I'm starting to really think that time just needs to slow down. Maybe not a pause or rewind but a SLOOOOOW motion button. I just want my babies to stay babies for just a little bit longer. 

We took the to the barn with us today....Kenzie was amazing. Not a peep out of her she was  so happy just being around the horses and looking at the big construction trucks. Kaleb on the other hand. I would have liked to leave in the car. I don't know quite what his problem is lately but he's either really happy and being extremely good or he's being such a brat. Now I know I sound cold and mean to call my own child a brat but I'm being brutally honest, Lately he has been just done right horrible. He cries over the smallest things, he lies and then of course he knows he's been bad starts whinny and crying all over again. I just wish that kids came with a user manual or something. I love my poohie, More then words but when he gets like this I feel like a giant failure. Like I'm a horrible mother and nothing I do is right. Because in my mind kids are a direct representation of their upbringing. So that's my dilemma of the day. What am I doing wrong.



I was told a few weeks ago that certain people think that my priorities aren't in the right place and that I should be more focused on my family. I haven't really said anything because I'm trying to let that go but at the same time it sticks to the back of your mind like a bad movie. I know that I spend a lot of time at the barn and by a lot I mean like 3 hours  a day. But really how is that different the mothers that go to work for 8 hours a day? Yes I may not be getting paid to do what I'm doing but the opportunities I have are amazing. I'm working with amazing animals. I'm responsible for their training and that takes dedication. So I guess people need to look at an entire picture before they sit back a judge my situation. Neill and I are happy with our life and yes it takes sacrifices to me being at the barn but I think  that in the end it benefits not only me but my entire family. Kaleb and Kenzie will have such wonderful opportunities to learn with some pretty outstanding horses if they decide that's what they want.  I feel much better now that I've gotten that off my chest!!

Back to my babies, Kenzie is getting better and better at going to bed on her own. Some nights now she doesn't even cry at all and just closes her eyes and goes to sleep! I think cutting back on the naps during the day is going to help that too. She's getting better about not wanting to nap at 3 in the afternoon too! She's walking more and more everyday I'm sure within the next month she'll be walking on her own. Once she sets her mind to something she does it! yesterday she tried to climb up onto Harley's back trying to ride her like a horse. It was adorable. I'm so lucky to have a little girl! Its so much fun!
Kaleb like I  said is either really good or really bad. It can get pretty tiring but at the same time I try to find something amazing that he does every day and without fail I find at least one thing. He's a  pretty special little boy and as much as he drives I know how lucky I am.  


Oh and we got some good news today Babe goes to see the specialist on the 18th of May. So we'll hopefully get a surgery date shortly after and then we can get my sweetie back on the mend! 


That's it for tonight, 


Till Next Time!!!