Pride

You ever have one of those days that shocks you? Today was one of those days for me. I shocked myself at how well I can handle what life throws at me, I'm not perfect and don't claim to be but today I am proud of myself. Today was my first thyrogen shot and I had to have a blood test first but with Neill working the mid day shift I ended up bringing the kids with me!! Holy I was so nervous of how bad it could go trying to watch the kids while having a blood test then getting a shot in the butt. It was interesting but I really am glad that they were with me! Kaleb was so good he practiced his inside voice and was a very good boy it was so funny when I got my shot I was looking and him and he goes " does it hurt mommy?" i of course didn't want to scare him so I answered no bud it doesn't hurt, without missing a beat he goes "then why are you making that face" well I started laughing and we joked back and forth. It made a crappy thing into a nice memory for me! Kenzie had a little harder time with being stuck in the stroller and not being able to see everything, but even still she was really well behaved to. I'm so proud of my babies!!

Poor babe is sick again and wasn't able to finish his shift at work so he's resting now and has the day off tomorrow thankfully so he can get over his cold and start feeling better quickly. As much as I love him being home I love healthy Neill being home more!


Today was a really great day!! I never would have thought I would be saying that after being at the hospital and hanging out with a sick man, but today really was great:)

Well it's been a busy day and it's time for me to get some rest!

Till Next Time!!!!

Now that was a weekend!

If a weekend has set guidelines of what made a weekend a real weekend I believe that we have finally had a real"weekend"! Yesterday we did are rounds of visiting , we stopped at Grammie and popped for a little bit then made our way to moms. Nan came down to see us too so that was nice. We had a great visit the kids had fun Neill and Trav got to pick on each other like normal and then just like I had hoped we got home early enough to have dinner just the four of us! Nothing major nothing fancy, what made it great was the fact that we we're all together.

But what put the cherry on top, what made this weekend so great was the fact that for the first time in I can't remember how long I didn't leave the house. I stayed in my pjs all day long and just enjoyed the company of my kids and hubby. It was awesome, we played and watched movies then we had a great visit with Grandpa and Grandie down in Texas! Gotta love kinect it brings everyone closer no matter the distance! Well after our visit I thought I should at least attempt at making the day productive I got as far as our room and decided nah today I'm doing nothing! But at least our room is clean :)

I go tomorrow for my first shot before my scan on Friday..... Gotta say I'm a little nervous but at least I'll have the kids with me so that will help me be strong. Everyone keeps asking if I want them to watch the kids while I go but I keep say no it's ok, I'm realizing now that it's more then likely because i know that if they are with me I won't let my self be afraid or anxious because I'll be strong for them!!
Just another step to get through so that we can have a great summer:)

Well I'm off to enjoy the rest of my do nothing day!

Till Next Time!!!!

Winter again..... No thank you

Well as the title may suggest today dear mother nature decided to be nasty and throw some nasty wind and yes the dreaded s word snow... I was not impressed to see that this morning. But I got to feel useful today at the barn, we built temporary stalls for the three other broodmares and babies! It felt good to be busy like that. Ariel and delight were both nice and comfy up in the neighbors barn, Ariel is almost all sheded out, just her neck area left! She's so much darker. I'd say she's almost a liver chestnut which is my favorite! well one of them anyway :)

My battle with kaleb continued today once I got home from the barn we were at each other again. It just seems like everything I say he either crys or talks back. I'm trying to stay calm and level headed but it's pretty hard. I know it's not just his fault I'm not as patient because of the stupid low iodine diet and the anxiety that ones with the upcoming scan. But even with all the battles and fights kaleb and I went through we still managed to get some laughs in!


Kenzie was feeling goofy tonight she would flop on her chair and climb onto her brother it was adorable. She actually let kaleb flip her upside down! I freaked thinking he hurt her but couldn't stop laughing when I saw her reaction , she actually thought it was fun! Big news today little miss actually walked all by herself. I thought maybe just maybe she'd walk to kaleb well I was right! It was sooo awesome kaleb and I both freaked out and started clapping and saying good girl!!


Tomorrow's Saturday I'm hoping we can have a quiet weekend so we can just relax and enjoy each others company after this week I'll have one weekend left before the first show of the season! I'm getting nervous. I don't know what I'm going to do without my babies for an entire weekend. At least I have a great hubby and I know he'll take great care of the kids!

Well I'm going to go finish the tiding up before my love comes home!


Till Next Time!!!

Don't Blink

Don't Blink!!

Seriously I think ever time I blink another day as past and I'm sitting here at the computer writing these posts. I'm starting to really think that time just needs to slow down. Maybe not a pause or rewind but a SLOOOOOW motion button. I just want my babies to stay babies for just a little bit longer. 

We took the to the barn with us today....Kenzie was amazing. Not a peep out of her she was  so happy just being around the horses and looking at the big construction trucks. Kaleb on the other hand. I would have liked to leave in the car. I don't know quite what his problem is lately but he's either really happy and being extremely good or he's being such a brat. Now I know I sound cold and mean to call my own child a brat but I'm being brutally honest, Lately he has been just done right horrible. He cries over the smallest things, he lies and then of course he knows he's been bad starts whinny and crying all over again. I just wish that kids came with a user manual or something. I love my poohie, More then words but when he gets like this I feel like a giant failure. Like I'm a horrible mother and nothing I do is right. Because in my mind kids are a direct representation of their upbringing. So that's my dilemma of the day. What am I doing wrong.



I was told a few weeks ago that certain people think that my priorities aren't in the right place and that I should be more focused on my family. I haven't really said anything because I'm trying to let that go but at the same time it sticks to the back of your mind like a bad movie. I know that I spend a lot of time at the barn and by a lot I mean like 3 hours  a day. But really how is that different the mothers that go to work for 8 hours a day? Yes I may not be getting paid to do what I'm doing but the opportunities I have are amazing. I'm working with amazing animals. I'm responsible for their training and that takes dedication. So I guess people need to look at an entire picture before they sit back a judge my situation. Neill and I are happy with our life and yes it takes sacrifices to me being at the barn but I think  that in the end it benefits not only me but my entire family. Kaleb and Kenzie will have such wonderful opportunities to learn with some pretty outstanding horses if they decide that's what they want.  I feel much better now that I've gotten that off my chest!!

Back to my babies, Kenzie is getting better and better at going to bed on her own. Some nights now she doesn't even cry at all and just closes her eyes and goes to sleep! I think cutting back on the naps during the day is going to help that too. She's getting better about not wanting to nap at 3 in the afternoon too! She's walking more and more everyday I'm sure within the next month she'll be walking on her own. Once she sets her mind to something she does it! yesterday she tried to climb up onto Harley's back trying to ride her like a horse. It was adorable. I'm so lucky to have a little girl! Its so much fun!
Kaleb like I  said is either really good or really bad. It can get pretty tiring but at the same time I try to find something amazing that he does every day and without fail I find at least one thing. He's a  pretty special little boy and as much as he drives I know how lucky I am.  


Oh and we got some good news today Babe goes to see the specialist on the 18th of May. So we'll hopefully get a surgery date shortly after and then we can get my sweetie back on the mend! 


That's it for tonight, 


Till Next Time!!!

Wednesday already

Wednesday already? It doesn't seem possible, the days just fly by it's insane. I course went to the barn today even though I wasn't looking forward to it like I normally do. Once I got there things slowly started getting better though. Nothing like the power of horses to make you have a quick change of heart! I decided with everything going on I didn't want to practice showmanship so instead, I turned today into a giant photo shoot! With only two weeks till the show we need some new pics of our fillies!Spring was a major show off and I finally got the chance to take some pictures of a horse rearing up! I should have been a little more to the side of her but either way I love the picture and I will be putting it up on the wall! Even Chance put on a good show :) I can't remember if I explained who spring is.. well she is a yearling filly, Ariel's half sister on the fathers side! I'm going to be showing Spring at the New England Paint Horse Club shows and probably a couple futurity's in the fall, As you can see she is a gorgeous girl. I'm extremely lucky to have the opportunity to work and show her. Ariel and Delight are doing good, got the news tonight that they will still have a place to stay once they start digging the arena out.I was very relieved! Everything really does work it's self out when you just give it a chance!

Kenzie had her one year check up today shots included. My oh my she really didn't like the nurse, it was unreal how much she didn't even want to look her, So she got her three shots in her arms. I wish they could have given them to her in her legs, she doesn't have much meat on her arms poor thing. She cried of course but the minute we got out of the room she was smiling again! I of course found it really hard to watch my peanut get her shots, to see the fear and dread in her eyes. I actually found my self having to keep my self from both stopping the girl from poking her and from crying myself.  Babe came with us but with his hernia acting up and the language barrier its hard for him to feel included in the process. I  sometimes wish we lived somewhere where he didn't have to worry if the people he would run into spoke a different language but then I realize that this is the best place for us to be.Anyways our doctor says that Kenzie is staying on her growth curve so we don't need to worry she's just built in a tiny package! There is nothing wrong with that. I'm happy that she's stayed on her line I always worry that maybe she's missing something but I guess I can stop worrying now! So besides having to hold her down to even listen to her heart, he appointment went really well. She's perfect!! 

My little man went to Grammie and Poppa's for the afternoon so once I got down at the doctors office I headed to Waterville to pick him up. I have no clue why but I turned into the Tim Horton's parking lot and was hit with a huge anxiety attack which got so bad I actually took a detour because I thought something was wrong with my car, I swear sometimes it would be nice to have an off bottom on my brain. Its so tiring.  Kaleb of course was having such a good time that he wanted to stay longer so we stayed for supper, I didn't complain any meal I don't have to cook is a great one :) After supper we stopped at my moms, I wanted to stop and pick up my new pink iPod charger! It's so cool even the wall adapter is pink I love it!

I bet your waiting for me to say I'm gonna go fold laundry huh, but not tonight I'm gonna change it up! I'm going  to curl up on the couch and watch TV till my sweetie comes home!

Till Next Time!!!

Simply a nice family day!

Simply a nice family day!

 Nothing fancy happened, we went to visit my aunt at her farm. Kaleb must have asked about 100 questions and ran the length of the arena a dozen times so i'd say its safe to say he enjoyed himself! I miss going to that barn, I really need to make more of an effort to get there more to visit with her. While we we're up that way we went back to Courtney's to make a trip to visit with her and of course so Kaleb could go see the goats and all the other animals. I think we've decided to try a goat out on loan. Meaning we will bring one of the yearling goats up to the barn close to courts place and see if Kaleb is actually interested before we invest money into something that he ends up not wanting anything to do with! So i'm not sure who's more excited him or me. I really am and animal nut. I would love nothing more then to have my own little menagerie! I hope that the kids become animal lovers too. Kaleb loves everything so i'm sure that will continue as he grow up! Kenzie is still pretty young but she seems to be pretty interested in the animals too. She is especially fond of cats. I think that has a lot to do with the fact that Mia has been sleeping with her since she was very young! I'm always so proud of Harley when we take her place and she behaves like such a good girl, she just loves to run and play and to see her listen so well and stay close off her leash is an amazing feeling. Its amazing that  with so little work she can do long distance sit stays, or lay downs. She's an amazing family dog and we are lucky to have her in our life! One of the worlds 7 best dogs on earth!

Well when we came home Kaleb and I thought it would be a good idea to give Harley a bath, She had been playing in the mud and walking around in the stinky cow/goat barns so he jumped into the tub and we gave her a bath! The water was NASTY dirty. I don't know how one dog can get so dirty!! Oh well it was so worth it Kaleb and I had a blast and she looks so good now. I've decided that before we start the summer flea prevention that the cats are getting a bath too. I don't think I'll have Kaleb help me this time, the last time he helped me wash Dewey he felt so bad for the cat that he thought he would dry him off with toilet paper.... yes toilet paper so that just made a huge mess, atleast Dewey is very patient! 

Poor Kenzie is teething like crazy right now so her mood is pretty touch and go. But she actually let me feel her gums today and I can feel the tooth under the skin so it should be to much longer poor thing. She goes to the doctors tomorrow for her one year shots and her check up. I'm anxious to see what they are going to say about her size. When I went a few months ago our doctor said that we would know more at this appointment.I mean how many babies actually wear out there clothes her age. She's actually wearing a onesie that she wore at a month old, its crazy. I think its cute how little and petite she is, a real little doll! But don't let that little package fool you she is chucked full of personality and attitude!

Well it's that time again, yupe you guessed it! Time to go fold laundry! 

Oh and before I forget, what we had hoped for with the horse's didn't work out so for now we are going to stay where we are. Eventually we will have our own place to keep them!! 

Till Next Time!!!!

Playing Catch Up

I've been sitting here trying to think of what to write about today. My last post was a pretty big downer and since I'm still kind of in a bad place at the moment when it comes to my horses. I got hit with another frigen shocker this morning when I got to the barn, that just sent me on a whirl wind of emotions and ugh to be honest it's exhausting. See where we board our horses they are under going some pretty major Reno's like new arena and turning the current arena into a permanent barn. but since they were already full they had been using the current arena as a barn anyways and that's where my girls where so when I got there this morning it was pouring rain so I of course expected to see my pretty girls standing in their stall happy to see me. I walked into a totally different thing all together. I walked in to see my horse's soaking wet in the run in after having spent the night outside. Yes they could come in for shelter if they wanted but still. One Ariel is my futurity baby. I need her to be kept at optimal condition at all times, and Second I just spent $140 on horse shoes for delight and now she stuck out into a swampy field. Now as mad and upset I am that they have to life like that , what hurts me the most is the fact that no one felt the need to let me know that my horses will be living like that for a minimum of two weeks. Now to some it may seem like I'm over reacting but think of it this way, these two have in kept inside with blankets on all winter and Delight is on 100% summer show hair and Ariel isn't far behind her. So now I'm stuck debating if i should reconsider the location I'm boarding them or if I should just suck it up. I'm going tomorrow to talk to someone else about maybe moving the girls there. I'll be able to make my mind up easier after that.




OK so now I've gotten whats bothering me off my chest I'll tell y'all about the good stuff that has happened since Friday! We had a very nice weekend, Saturday started out rough with a bad trip to Walmart but quickly turned around to end up being a great day! We went to visit mom and Nan was down too so that was nice, the kids are always so happy to see her!. Once we got home Neill and I actually sat down and watched a movie together no babies demanding out attention. It was nice it made all the crying the week before teaching Kenzie  to go to sleep on her own. Sunday Poohie went to Sunday school, so we went and visit the errands at Walmart. We got my show outfit for the show in may. Then headed to my grandparents to pick up poohie and have lunch with them! I had an awesome experience I got to bottle feed a goat for the first time ever. It was so cool. poor Kaleb has a very weak stomach and he was fine until he smelt the milk and then nope he wouldn't do it no more. I felt bad for him but he at least got to try to do and was able to see the little goats all happy and drinking it was a really cool thing to share with my kids. Kenzie wanted to get down and play with them it was cute! I'd say her favorite part of the visit to Courtney's was the 2 week old kittens her eyes got all big and she just looked so happy it was adorable! I really wish I could move onto a small piece of land so we could keep our horses at out own place and we could have a couple goats and stuff. We are a family of animals lovers stuck in an apartment that none of want to be in lol. Oh well you make do with what you have and you learn to live with the decisions you've made. Neill and I watched a couple more movies Sunday night and I shocked myself I only feel asleep during the second one!! Lately the minute I sit down and relax a little bit I'm out like a light!


Well now I've got you up to I can fill you in on the cuteness of today! Kaleb and I finally tackled his bedroom, it was an DISASTER of epic proportions. But now it looks amazing, He is very proud of his room now, he said that he was going to stay awake all night just so he could show his dad what a good job he did! I told him it would still be clean in the morning so it was safe to go to sleep! We had a little chat and he's going to try to keep his room clean like that all the time, I said your room should like this every night. A little while later he went in to put something away and he goes I'm gonna make my room like this every night it was pretty awesome! 


Kenzie is getting closer and closer to walking she walks along everything and anything now and likes walking holding our hands. I'm sure it won't be long and off she'll go. She's teething like crazy right now. When Kaleb was little I thought he had big teeth but man his teeth were small compared to the teeth in her mouth ouch is the only thing that comes to mind, he poor little gums are all swollen and red but she's a tough nut and is staying in pretty good humor just the same. She has quite the character my little peanut princess! She quite clearly told her brother no over the weekend it was so cute. He was trying to get her to say Cat and she shook her head and said no it was priceless. Another great achievement this weekend was Kenzie learning how to drink from a straw! She could scream and yell at us to hold her sipping cup for her she had no desire to even try to hold it for herself so we decided well its worth a try I only had to show her once and BAM she now holds her own cup and can drink without us holding it for her!!


I think I've vented and ranted enough for one night its time for me to go fold my mountain of laundry!!


Till Next Time!!!